The worst is telling the people who are the closest to you. It is not something that I will say in an everyday conversation. Even if I meant to tell you, I'll somehow chicken out at the end. I don't know why. For fear of being judged? For fear of being asked to choose? For fear of being asked the questions that I dread cos I believe there are no answers to them? I guess it's a mixture of all. So my dear friends, please don't be offended. If I didn't tell you, it's because I hold you close and dearly to my heart. That being said, I hope you will respect my decision as well. CHEERS!